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Name: Nina Rose
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Birthday: 10/29/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Art, rain, bands, long walks, laughing, friends
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Member Since:
5/26/2004
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| I hope i give good advice... i hoped it helped... i pray your smiling...you know who you are....dear... | | |
| " I don't know how but I know I want out.."
There is so much I want to say to people, so much I feel that i have left out, so many things I know I need to apologize for. I feel like there are words stuck in my head that just son't come out, i know i have a lot to say right now. I know it. I don't handle stress well, i either sleep all the time, or don't sleep at all. There is no happy medium.Have Faith. I agree with you Mel, whatever happens... i don't really care anymore. Let's go, push record because i have a lot of things to say. I could be so much more than what i am right now. I hope that California brings out something in me. Something more than this. It's snowing in April. That adds depression to the secenry.Joy.I need more pictures of friends. I need to write more letters. I also need to take a walk, with my big scarf and my long jacket.
I'm done running from things. It's a known fact i push away things that are good for me. It's unintentional. I'm alone in this.Hope. I hate crying in front of people. I'm doing the best i can and trying to figure this out and where i am suppose to be. I need to stop wasting time, this is getting to be something i can't stand yet i still put up with it. Is this enough to make all of it go away? Chances are no.Prayer.My friends are few my problems are many. I try to make every conversation meaningful. I don't think this holds meaning. We did. I thought so.I cry more than you know. I'm in dire need of a vaction, i think it would be nice to go alone. Company is welcome. I am doing well... i'm happy. I find it relaxing to drive with the windows down in the rain and the heat on high. Rain makes me smile. So does the color green. I love God.Who doesn't?
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| It still amazes me how much God has done in my life since Janurary. I looked at 2005 thinking it had nothing to offer and it was going to be the same as last year. I am shocked. I get a new look at life every morning. I had a situation fall into my lap yesterday that brought tears to my eyes. Normally i would have thought about this certain thing for days even weeks, letting it control most of my thought and focus. A great friend saw my distress... sat me down in a chair and said "let it go, and give it to God." Such a simple phrase but it was so true.
I should not be wasting my time saying "why God?" but "yes God" For i know His plans for me are greater than anything i could think of. God is in control. We as sinners feel we can focus on it and in doing that it makes everything better... false! I am praying and giving it to God.
I am currently reading "Keys to spiritual growth" by John McArthur. He put prayer in a wonderful light to me. Praying is like breathing. There is no special time to pray....in the morning... in the evening... you don't say "oh i took a few gasps in the morning or i took a few gasps in the evening. We are to pray without ceasing... we breathe without even thinking about it. As Christians prayer to us is like breathing, it should come naturally. I am praying that the Lord will change my point of view on things and that I learn to "pray without ceasing."
Philippians 4:8
"Finally breathren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is an virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy meditate on these things." | | |
| You should just be here.... be with me here... | | |
| I am worried and i am asking God to calm me in my time of need. I am being patient and waiting on the Lord, i know that He will give me direction.
He is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. | | |
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